Wednesday, August 8, 2007

Insubstantiality …..

Imaginative indulgence more often
bears naught, silence of mind amidst
tableau of emotive affairs
and myriads of conniption .....
looks only for failures,
for reasons beyond recognition;

Hopes, wishes and desires, all
orphans of unrequited ardor, resurrects
all that you had passed, intentionally
without thought or even a consideration .....
worth, for the millions of dollars
the pauper had contemplated and lost;

In the mired slugfest of unrelenting intentions
I look no further for your illicit ostentations
as portentous as it is, of unnerving
unsatisfying, embellished illusions
I choose you to have your way
as I lie here, with un-solicited recollections.

25 comments:

Priya said...

Is that someone getting that msg' ??

Imaginative indulgence more often
bears naught, silence of mind
amidst tableau of emotive affairs

- How true they are...

Alok said...

Priya Hi,

don't know for it is difficult to read the mind of a woman .... of thousands of attempts that a man makes, always somehow knowing he will fail but still hoping and desiring not to fail this time ..... and giving it one more shot ... and if she doent listen well i guess he simply has to move on

--- call it pride of a man if u may but he simply has to let it go at one point ... right? wht say

btw: I have no clue as usual for I am not the man in the piece :)

ty and take care

alok

Priya said...

( I am not the man in the piece :) )
Clever indeed Alok.
I say its difficult to read any human mind coz whatz inside your heart is known only to you however close you are to the other person. I think I left few notes in my twitter saying " to let go is like losing yourself".

You cannot let go of many things which you desire or treasure. Is that true?

Alok said...

Priya lol! me and clever ...

and yeah i agree with ur twitter :)it is always difficult to let go ... very difficult

and yes it is difficult to read any mind but believe me more so of women, atleast for me .... all the women that I have met and known in my life, i cannot claim to have known anyone fully ... i must be really pathetic for I have failed miserably in simply understanding in wht goes inside their mind ... wht they were thinking etc etc :)

btw: but when you said "You cannot let go ... i hope u were generalising :)

alok

KAYLEE said...

great peice you ok?

Alok said...

I am fine Kaylee :)

thank you

Priya said...

i cannot claim to have known anyone fully

- Alok, if u read them or know them full don't u think its boring too. Then we only drift slowly as nothing more to know.

Thaz why human minds r difficult or kept that way for people to get along atleast till they go for it.

but when you said "You cannot let go ... i hope u were generalising :)

Ofcourse in general only.

Alok said...

Priya ... couldnt agree with u more ... the beauty of brains is their individuality and the constant endeavor to outthink wht some one else is thinking abt them, (no one wants to be predictable)......

let me put it this way .... atleast knowledge of some part of wht they think :) I am such an illeterate nut tht cannot even understand the basic alphabets :)

alok

Priya said...

I am such an illeterate nut tht cannot even understand the basic alphabets :)

- Donno worry I sail ther too.

Alok said...

Priya ....:)

alok

Janice Thomson said...

Reading all the comments Alok I'd like to add this: Perhaps if a man was more open to his feelings and a woman was more reticent about hers there would come that perfect harmony. Each can learn from the other.
Your poem with its superb imagery and poignancy is indicative of a lot of relationships these days.

Alok said...

Janice, thanx

Yes I think you are right ... open communication and dialogue is such an important premise for starting, maintaining and sustaining a relationship ... somewhere down the line we tend to ignore this very premise on which any relationship is built ... but i guess the balance that each one of us are trying to seek and achieve is just so ethereal

thank you

alok

Keshi said...

I always let others have their way...as long as that doesnt disrespect my ways...

:)
Keshi.

J. Andrew Lockhart said...

very strong! nice.

aria said...

"I choose you to have your way
as I lie here, with un-solicited recollections."

This is closer to my heart. There is a twilight zone between one moment and the other .. but its always better to let go .. if one can.. (I think its always easier for men to move on .. :D )

That aside, loved the piece your lyrical virtuosity is quite compelling .. and you fuse each line with apt emotions ..

laughingwolf said...

simple solution: open communications, both ways... easier said than done, though

Alok said...

Keshi,

"I always let others have their way...as long as that doesnt disrespect my ways...

I think respect of space between 2 individuals if not compromised can go a long way in ensuring a healty relationship

thanx buddy

Alok said...

Andrew Sir, thank you

alok

Alok said...

Aria thank you so much! u have been unduly kind

" but its always better to let go .. if one can.. (I think its always easier for men to move on .. :D )

Well, believe me from my perspective men suffer as much if not more, its just that they need to have a straight face to every single adversity faced it in life that they r misunderstood .... From a personal experience, it is a pain to let go (I guess me being a cancerian gotta play a role in that too, never easy but yes sometimes I did make it look easy but believe me it was not

take care

Alok said...

Tony (laughing wolf) .. very true, far more difficult to implement than conceptualize

thank you

alok

delhidreams said...

hope u wont mind, but i dont like those things in which i've to keep a dictionary with me :)
sar k upar se gayi bhai...
apart from a few lines, and the theme, which as always r beautiful...

Alok said...

Adi, are you mad ... can i mind anything tht u say

not at all ..

ty & tc

alok

gP said...

a tour de force. :D

Keshi said...

very well-said Alok.

Keshi.

Alok said...

Siva (Ghosty) :D

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Keshi, we r on the same plane then i believe :)

take care guys

alok